HEALING DUALITY:
Separation
As a child I was told the Devil is bad and can be evil and that evil is bad. My young body remembered the experience of evil from past lives.
My mother was the first person to say the name God and divinity to me as a toddler. My young body remembered the experience of bliss from pure divine from past lives. It was then that I created separation between good and bad. That I would choose to be good and intentionally reject bad.
My childhood home had a church size altar in an upper floor salon see above image and is s till there, where my Great Grand Mother would open our property gates and receive the town in Catholic mass when she would sponsor feast of saints and catholic processions. Our culture was colonial Spain, and we are traditionally Catholic with a strong Jesuit influence. Although the family was religious, not everyone was spiritual. The spiritual in my family had a deep love and honor for divinity. For the sake of this healing, I will not go into the details of my awakening to those many family members led by Maria and Sandra unsanctioned leaders as Satanist in this section. Rather, I would like to mention reconciling Divinity with the most unspeakable Evil application and assault upon my younger middle sister and her son, who was born with cerebral palsy and epilepsy. Later, I discovered the assault that had happened to our youngest sister. Both of whom I loved and adored. By the time I saw my sister and her son in distress all the players were in place, and I couldn’t get my sister and her son away from the gang of family members involved in staging this assault. I called the authorities for welfare checks over and over and over for a year and a half; they were involved. Eventually, they committed manslaughter on my sister’s son.
During these months that turned into years, I was told of ritual abuse, of sacrifice, of bloodletting, of harvesting the Feminine, of punishment, of the disposition of cruelty, hate, rage, backstabbing as a ceremony or means of stealing life force, swiping, substituting, sexual depravity, child molestation and on and on. I already had a spiritual program, I had already had a healing practice and I going through every skill I practiced as a spiritual person, to deal with my own terror and distress for my sister being assaulted and not being able to get her out from my cousin Maria and my late father’s partner Sandra who turned out to be his handler. It made sense to me to label them Satanist. However, I was wrong. I was told the whole lot of them were practicing devil worship, and that Mother and Father and my siblings were beholden to them. However, it was my parents and my siblings that were being assaulted. There was something wrong with this picture. This told me the definition of Devil worship and Satanism has been redefined by toxic parasitical sub human practice. of the patriarchy. Today's toxic ceremony backwards harvesting of the Feminine in both male and female bodies is not what I have found by the origins of ancient Earth as Satanism. My Mother and her children are pure Love and we know the Divine and Darkness. t is unconditional love to allow both in union andbalance.
I never feared my cousins, aunts and uncles or my father’s partner as evil cruel people. It was well hidden from me, and I was kept out of the loop. My healing showed me how terrified these people were. That Evil is when one is in a constant state of terror and pain and that the only relief was to force it on others. That Evil is a lost child of divinity and hasn’t or refuses to head home. TBC
THE HEALING:
